One of the regrets I am working on letting go of is not seeking knowledge. It was knowledge I could get for free, knowledge that would have been helpful over the last two years and also into the future. While I can still gain this knowledge for free, and perhaps with less frustration, I can no longer gain it from the one person that I knew would give this information without strings attached. My dad knew so many things and was such a great example of what it means to seek; he was willing to share anything he knew as long as you asked and were willing to listen. I desired the knowledge my father had but I rarely gave the time needed to absorb his words. I wanted his free gift without wanting to take the time to receive. In the time since my dad’s death two years ago, I have thought about my foolishness so many times. All of the unfinished projects and all of the projects that have come up are the biggest reminder. If I would have just spent more time with my dad, I could have helped him finish his projects, our projects, and other projects needed around the house. I wanted things without having to do anything, and sometimes I just expected things to be easy.

We Christians often make the same mistake with God. We desire a great many things that God wants to give us without putting in the work. So many times, in our lives, we want everything to be given to us and we want everything to come easy. Unfortunately for us, that’s not how it works. Christ told us that if we seek, we will find (Matthew 7:7). We forget, in our walk, that seeking is a verb; it is something we do. Finding is also a verb. This means that we cannot do the finding without the seeking. If we want the knowledge of God, we must seek it. If we want His mercy and grace, we must seek it. If we want what God wants to give us, all we must do is seek.